Ben Stiller plays Jerry Stahl the key player in this film. 90 days out of rehab Jerry meets this women in a motel for a fun time. Based on his poor performance they get to talking about their past lives and then moving from just sex to sex and heroin. Jerry tells his story that night in the hotel room to kitty about his past drug addiction. Jerry is a writer and a pretty good one at that and he does the normal walk of life but the only difference is he gets caught up in drugs.
I would have to say this movie was pretty disturbing. I know it was a drug movie in all but I felt it got right down to the cold hard facts of what being addicted to hard core drugs can actually look like and do to a man and his life. The movie didn’t start out that messed up. Its hard to tell what the first drug is that they are doing in the movie but by comparing them to the other drugs as the movie went on, Im guessing it was the gateway drug weed or maybe it was crack hard to tell.
At first it looks like Jerry is able to function and function pretty well on the heroin as he goes about his career and seems to get multiple opportunities for different gigs in his industry. He also becomes pretty good at hiding his drug use from his wife who I think is a little too forgiving of the fact that her husband as a heroin addict. His addiction to heroin really starts to become obvious when he has to shoot up whenever his last dose wears off or he becomes stressed. You get to see how he becomes more out of control and brain dead as his heroin addiction becomes worse. He can’t even carry on a conversation and half the people he knows or meets he either tries to score from in the most desperate ways.
Eventually Jerry switches one drug for another as he is pushed to get clean from the heroin to keep his new job. He checks himself in to rehab where the Doctor pretty much tells him how sick he is from his addiction. Jerry does not take his rehab that seriously since as soon as he walks out the doors of the clinic he is met by this god forsaken drug dealer who sells to people trying to get off drugs. This guy is real messed up as he get Jerry addicted to crack and pretty much sells him some all the time even though he wants to get off it knowing how jacked up the crack makes him. Some of the scenes with him on crack are pretty messed up as it show war this drug makes people do.
Most of the saddest parts of this movie involve Jerry running in to other people and how sick and disturbed Jerry looks to the outside world even though he can’t necessarily see it himself being high all the time. But The people that he runs into just doing his normal life while on drugs would make a normal person feel so shameful and you really feel sorry that a guy like Jerry could drop so low. Toward the end Jerry eventually gets caught and sent to jail in the most sorrowful circumstance ever. Although your happy for the guy after seeing that he finally is going to get some help.
This movie was hard to finish seeing how messed up drugs actually are in the hand of an addict. Most the time this movie just gave me bad feeling and made me sad and depressed. It even took me a while to stop thinking about it after it was over and the way it effected me lingered. I will never watch this again, not because it was a bad movie, but just because I like watching stuff that makes me have good feeling and not nightmares. This Movie gets a Six out of Ten.